I made a grave error here. I remained silent about what was happening to me. It was the silence that did me in. It's amazing to me how during the marriage and separation how he went right down the abuser check list including trying to have me psychologically evaluated because, in his opinion, I have an undiagnosed mental illness when in fact it was his behavior that pushed everything to the limits of sanity. What I have learned is that all the psychological, emotional, and even sexual abuses he meted out without feeling he has done anything wrong whittles down to one fine poin: I may be dealing with a psychopath. Yup, that's right I spent the last fourteen years with a man who is potentially truly evil and I spent the entire time trying to figure out what it was I was doing wrong. Turns out that sometimes. . . it's really not you.
So how do you deal with a psychopath? The truth is no one should deal with them. Period. You should walk away, however I am cornered into the next 12 years or so ( our youngest is 7) with dealing with him. I fear the destruction he will bring to that child's mind and soul over the course of that time. I see the bullying behavior start in him. I see that my ex husband is beginning to treat our daughter with the cold shoulder because she refuses to bend to his favor. She's 14 and she sees the pattern that started with her older brother, rolled off to me, and now has fallen squarely on her. I see that our youngest is being groomed to be our daughter's co abuser. All the signs are there, yet even the children's counselor won't listen to me. While the counselor had a full face to face conversation with my husband, he made no move to contact me. I had to call him up and have him call me back to talk with me and even so he tried to fireside chat with me with no notes about our children's case in front of him and then had the audacity to tell me that my husband has a long laundry list on me and completely blew me off . . . of course he does! It's what abusers do. It's called institutional grooming. That and the counselor feels beholden to my ex because guess who is paying him?
|Which one is Nalaya??? O_o???|
That's right. People of Odd hear ye, hear ye! The Devil has arrived with glistening horns to take her throne in Hell! I just love the quip I saw out of Robin Artisson awhile back ago on Facebook. A woman told him there was a special place in Hell for him. He answered: " It's called a throne." Well, I guess now I get to take my special place betwixt Heaven and Hell and live up to the horns my ex has crowned me with. May he have night terrors from now to kingdom come! Whenever that is. Maybe if I do my hair right I can show them off better.