The sunflowers have since grown, flowered and gone to seed. I cut them down in proper season and proper ceremony leaving the faery three I marked earlier. That in itself had interesting results. The three that I had marked, by the time harvest actually came around, had been dried and stripped of their seeds while the rest were still green and the seeds plentiful. The sunflowers were a marvelous companion through the beginning of summer. They waved in the wind, bowing their full heads, they attracted enchanting bugs of every shiny color, bees created a super highway to get to my flowers and rush back to the hive with tales of pleasant, yellow pollen. Kneeling down beneath them brought on a cool rush of relief from the sun regardless of time of day. I can see how making a semi circle of them in a fort like fashion would make for a fine summer faery hut.
As promised earlier, I have news of the most excellent kind. I have working with a friend of mine who is also a healer. He uses accupressure massage techniques with a good whopping of reiki for good measure. I have discovered several things in this process. . . my joints are weird for beginners. Apparently I am one of those with all sorts of crazy cross ties that allow me to do insane things like function and walk like a real person while my joints are completely out of socket. I apparently walked ( danced, ran, and skipped) around on a hip joint that was being held by a tendon strap; completely out of place for 19 years! When it went back into it's proper position on the table, there was a great pop that sounded like someone had whacked a trash can with a hammer. I remember hearing that same sort of pop while giving birth to my first child. I guess now we know what it was. Since that moment, my fibromyalgia symptoms have begun to quickly retreat. I wake up in the morning and I feel like I can do my day with out the usual pep talk about how my circumstance may choose me, but I choose how I walk it.
There have been strangenesses. The first time the hip went in we had to stand and make a few quick adjustments. I slipped out of myself and saw myself in a completely different time and space. I was standing over a lake with wind over the water in a desert place. It was a full experience. My eyes could see, my ears could see, my skin could see and then it was gone. It lasted for no more of a blink of an eye here in this time space. I have had several other similar experiences since. I sort of attribute it to the unlocking of my body releasing things that became trapped and with that, a release other things from my soul's memories slips through I guess. It's a theory.
There are people ( many of them) who deserve my thanks. They have earned it.
Mr. Oddly: I know things have been hard. We have not worked out a good balance yet, but we are working on it. Your willingness to continue to pass through the firestorms I can produce would make any firefighter retreat for safety. I wish good marriages equaled no conflict, but that would make me delusional. Dragon husbandry is a hard career.
Mom and Dad: You knew I could do this before I did.
Tails, Scarlett, and Little Man: I love you all my little ones ( yes Tails, even you, will always be my little one even though I need a stepladder to look you in the eye. Scarlett. . . no, you are not yet taller than me.) your help and extra hands are a Goddess send and all those jokes and laughs. . . well who couldn't get better with that?
Zoe: keep writing, it makes me happy to see your thoughts paint the sky with brilliance.
Nikki: Thick and thin; bestfriendicide and all. You have been nothing but shade and cool water and the occasional desert chanty.
Mr. NotBeck: your healing talents are only surpassed by the generosity of your heart and friendship.
Mr. Freeman aka Lilith's Priest: I am honored that you would find me worthy of your healing ministrations.
Nick: you shine in the middle.
Laura: Sweet, sweet woman. . . how does this sour puss get set next to you and expected to out do your radiance??? Well it's not happening, not in this world anyway ;)
YOU: yes you. The one with their eyes scrolling across this screen. Your comments, your tweets, your shares, and likes. In a world where friends live in little boxes on laps, funky hand held cubes, and other strangenesses sure to fly our way, you have contributed to my well being. I honor and welcome the continuance of that relationship. You have lent me your eyes and ears and heart and tears. And the occasional evil snicker.
You Stand Against Me: at the end of the day it doesn't matter who stood and who fell. It's the lesson you taught me. You taught me the the holy scripture of "I." I bow before you, my foe, I know may fall here and I accept the lesson of surrender when it is time.
I am honored and blessed to have all of you.